Worth Fighting For
Calling all fighters…
To those who have either had to fight most of y’all lives whether that’s to protect yourself from those who should have protected you and/or those of you who just had to fight to raise yourself the best you knew how.
To those who had to fight to get that career you wanted or those who have been fighting just to make it to see tomorrow!
Whatever category of fight you would place yourself in…
You are NOT ALONE!!
Question for you…
Have you ever just gotten so tired of fighting that you decided to wave that white flag and say you are done with fighting? Even asked yourself, “what’s the point?”
That’s me! I’ll go ahead and raise both hands for that!
You see, I grew up with childhood trauma, family dysfunction, and had to learn to do whatever I needed to in order to survive.
I woke up fighting, went to bed fighting, all the way down to fighting in my dreams because of the intense nightmares that would haunt me each night!
This eventually took a toll on my entire wellbeing. From mental, to emotional, to even my physical.
But was it all bad? No…
When I hit my highs they would be extremely high. I was living my best life, but when I faced my lows I went extremely low.
As you may have read from previous posts one of the things that I have walked through is suicidal ideations and most recently self harm.
I was done!
I felt so defeated. It felt like no matter how much I fought I was always being knocked down by something. It just all became too much and I threw up my white flag and asked to be taken out.
Often finding myself saying, “I CAN’T DO THIS ANYMORE!!”
I HAD FOUGHT FOR TOO LONG, AND NOW I JUST WANTED SOMEONE TO FIGHT FOR ME!
BUT….
Can I just tell you that it gets better? It does! Not only that…it gets easier! I need you to know that you ARE worth fighting for!
You see for me, it wasn’t just a change of perspective and thought process that needed to happen, but I needed therapy to talk through those traumas and dysfunctions. It took surrounding myself with specific people who understood what i was facing and could care for me during that time.
I had to ask for help!
I was tired of feeling this way. I was tired of trying to do it on my own.
I thought, “Nobody can care for me the way I can care for myself!”
The Gag is…
I wasn’t caring for myself and in fact had given up on myself and didn’t know how to come out.
I needed help. I wanted help.
It was time to FIGHT!
It’s TIME to FIGHT!
I’ll say it again… You are worth fighting for! It’s through the pain that you will gain the most strength, it’s through the pain where God steps in like never before and surrounds you. It’s through the pain you can find freedom, it’s through the pain you can find healing.
Your pain is NOT in vain!
You are worth fighting for!
You have a purpose. Your story/ testimony matters. Like those who have gone before me, it was through their pain that I was able to find freedom. It was through their pain I found strength.
Keep fighting! Get back up! Put down the flag!
The light at the end of the tunnel is bright and closer than you think!
Don’t stop fighting for YOU!
Show up for YOU!
And don’t stop fighting until you reach your freedom!
