Godfidence
“No, I can’t talk in front of a crowd!” Said fear.
“I won’t ever find Godly friends!” Said social anxiety.
“You are scared, it will over power you so just give up now, plus remember your past!” Said the Devil.
For years I’ve let these statements rule my life and speak for me! For years I ran away from what God had planned for my life because of these statements and the weight they held!
I didn’t know what it meant to have CONFIDENCE, I didn’t know what it meant to have GODFIDENCE!
What I did know was, just the thought of standing on stage brought such a numbing fear to my core I instantly felt sick!
What I did know was, making friends with people wasn’t my strong suit, that being surrounded by a crowd of people was my kryptonite!
What I did know was, I’ve made mistakes in the past that would haunt me in my sleep, walk into work with me, and fear felt like it was my best friend!
Can I just say that although these things held me back in the past, I made the decision that I no longer wanted to walk in fear! I no longer allowed my past to define who I am! I no longer let anxiety cripple my every step!
Towards the end of last year instead of a New Years Resolution I made a promise instead. I told God that starting this new year I will say YES to whatever opportunities he brings in my direction!
Little did I know he was going to put me to the test! In the most AMAZING way!
He has brought so many opportunities and each time I have said yes and I have grown so much as a person and spiritually!
I promised to say yes no matter how big or small, no matter who brought the opportunity, and no matter how nervous it would make me!
God has given me an opportunity that I didn’t even see coming! I attend a church that brings me so much JOY and gives me so much LIFE! At my church we have multiple campuses everywhere and the ladies of the church have been joining together once a month on a Monday as we study a book series called Strong by Lisa Bevere!
I have had the honor and pleasure of going LIVE on our Sisterhood’s instagram page with amazing young adult ladies!
I received a text message from my pastor’s wife asking if myself and the Young Adults pastor who invited me to do the LIVE each week to share that Monday night on the Sisterhood Summer Experience!
I WAS SHOOK!!!
I was working I stopped what I was doing and I literally stopped what I was doing and so many emotions flooded in at once!
I began questioning, “What would I say?” “Am I even qualified to speak in front of hundreds of ladies?”
I said yes and instantly texted my two best friends because although I was super excited I was super nervous as well!
Man oh man, when I tell you who you surround yourself with really matters! My friends knew I was nervous, scared, and feeling so many emotions!
They surrounded me with so much love, excitement, and just words of encouragement that helped me when it came time to joining my pastor’s wife and the Young Adults Pastor!
One of my friends shared so many encouraging words!
First thing she said, “As you prepare, try to get more absorbed/ infatuated with God’s ability and desire to equip you for “EVERY GOOD WORK,” than trying to work yourself up to feeling qualified.”
Mind you I never mentioned in the text that I was having these thoughts and feelings!
Prior to that she said, “You have nothing to prove and so much to share!”
Let’s PAUSE for a second while I cry!!!
Okay I’m back!
The next thing she said was, “It’s a new season of God Confident Women... you are called to be confident.”
This next part took me out! She continued, “The Holy Spirit says... don’t make time for worry, that makes room for the enemy. Make time to worship, that makes room for God.”
CAN I GET AN AMEN!!!
I shared that to say this, let’s examine ourselves, what is it that God has placed on your heart, but you have allowed fear to step in between and caused you to step away from that which He’s placed inside of you?
It’s time that we as children of God to not only have CONFIDENCE, but let’s have that GODFIDENCE!!
It all starts with a YES! Let Him do the rest!
He is the God of Wonders! Watch him show up and show out!
I know He can and will because He has done that for me!
